Friday, February 25, 2011

In the depths of frustration, I smiled.

Yesterday was Thursday of course, because today is Friday. Duh. Yesterday was more like a Thirst day for me. My throat felt dry and I kept on buying bottles of mineral water at the canteen. And every time I finished up a bottle, my bladder straight away became full and I had to go to toilet countless of times just to empty my tank. That really pissed me off. I thought of gargling the water over my throat but that just seems disgusting in public, so I didn't do it. Okay, this is getting misleading. Let's stop this.

Had my driving test yesterday and guess what? I failed.That failure was like the worst failure I ever had in my whole life. I messed up at the parking. I know, like, parking? What the park? To be exact, it wasn't during the parking, rather it was when I was moving the crappy cramped kancil out after it was successfully parked in. I didn't reverse the car enough and so I hit the front pole while motioning out. That was the first time I ever hit a pole there. Out of all times, that was a perfect bad timing. Seemed pathetic right? Yeah. Sigh. People, do mock me if you want to right now.
I'll be plugging my ears. : D
Okay, just kidding.

Anyway, I'm not sad about failing the Part 2. At the very least, on the positive side, I passed the road test. After failing, I learnt my lesson of the day. Overconfidence will eat you up in ways you won't even expect.

The largest hawk in Kuala Kangsar, Douglas A-4 Skyhawk.
Maybe one day other than driving a car, I'll be piloting an aircraft.

Time and tide wait for no man, but license can wait. Even though, it doesn't worth the time. =.=

Monday, February 21, 2011

I remember the day when we were wandering in blunder.

He's a friend who had shared the same adversity with me, that is we had to go somewhere nowhere for a purpose we didn't even knew, and came back home with nothing. It's a long story and it's not something that can be easily written down here. In fact, we're not going to tell anyone about it anyway. That day when it all happened, we didn't really talked much. Just exchanging eye contact was enough because at that time, we had the same thing in mind. We just wanted to leave. Why? Our reasons too were the same.

And that day, our heads were beaten with some senses for hours. At least, those were what we took home.

Haziq, a.k.a Ateng.
Shot taken in somewhere in Kuala Kangsar, in a yard of a lone abandoned old house.

Whenever I talk or chat with him, it is always random and sometimes may even drag into an unthinkable conversation.

Argh. Typo is like, ineluctable.

Wondering what were we conversing about? Let's just leave that to the power of imagination. Imagination can sometimes turn a simple story into an epic one. By the way, do you know that imagination enhances your brain? You're gonna thank me if you're able to score more in your exam afterward.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The world is small. Don't make it any smaller with your mind.

At some time in the morning before noon, was when I found my consciousness being reeled out into reality from a couple of hours of my after Subuh prayer sleep. Lately, this has been a routine that both my body and mind have instinctively adopted to suit my not so scheduled daily life. It could probably be that my mind subconsciously wanted these days to pass by quickly by cutting as much time as possible being conscious from my time frame. Who knows, right? Anyways, I don't mind much because it's not like I have that much of things to do in the morning.

Whenever I woke up in the morning, it always took me some time to get myself off the bed. The first thing I did when I open up my eyes was stare across the room towards where the window of my room was. There, suspended a blue curtain that was still fully covering the window behind it. The curtain, shielding off sunlight from the outside of the window emanated blue shimmers throughout my dark room. It was a nice feeling waking up. It was like I was a prisoner who was stuck in such an awful place given a hope of freedom by that blue light. And so, I found myself getting of the bed and slowly pacing myself towards the curtain which was covering the window, the borderline that separates captivity from freedom.

Sliding the curtain sideways, uncovering the window behind, and it was just a normal casement window, grilled. What was more was a few metres away was another house also with the same type of window directly facing mine. And it too, was grilled. That nice feeling before, turned out to be just temporary once I was out of my reverie.

In reality, the world is kinda cramped in a perspective.

Unless we share everything.

Shot from a place nostalgic not just to me, but also to those who had set foot there.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

An art of fiasco.

Was at Fraser's Hill when I shot this one. Wasn't shot using my film camera but instead, was shot using my compact. I realise that it's been long since I last used it, and that I had been neglecting it while I was paying attention to the film camera. So hey, let's give it a shot this time.

Sadly, I don't know the name of the flower.

I think I screwed this shot. Notice that the leaf appeared to be more focused than the flower. Contradicting isn't it as the point of interest is the flower, not the leaf. Should have focused the flower first before positioning the picture for capture. But, oh never mind. There's always room for improvements.

Had a driving qualifying test today. The tester kinda pressured me to an extent that I think I'm gonna fail everything. But, Alhamdulillah, I'm grateful that I passed. I can't tell much here because there are a lot for me to tell if I were to tell. I can't simply summarize because that would leave blanks and questions in your mind. All I can say is, it's something that made me laugh all day long. The rest, are for your imaginations to play its role.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Out of all the things you can't do, there are lots of others you can.

They say curiosity killed the cat, but not my cat. And since I'm not a cat, I have the right to be curious. Sometimes because of curiosity, I did stupid stuffs. And sometimes, I asked a lot of questions that in the end will drive people crazy. And sometimes when that all weren't enough, I began questioning myself a lot and ended up being crazy myself.

But no matter how noisy I can be when I'm curious, a film camera can put my curiosity to shut.
With a film camera, it's a shut up and snap.

Shot when I was in my village last year. If you look closely, it wasn't just a light leak. There's a film defect too.

Had my driving lesson today and I can say that driving is fun. But for a beginner, there are still a lot for me to learn. My driving instructor always told me that when it comes to teaching, I have to be prepared for she will be dead serious when it comes to teaching. But in the end, like always, she can't put her strict face that long. Beginners deserve to be laughed at times. At least, tension's gone.

The best thing that happened today was when the car stalled on the crossroad square. And what's more, it was on a hill. That was great, considering how I sucked on the hill before. I was on the third gear when I was about to turn left approaching the crossroad. There weren't any cars there at that time so I thought it was okay to go, my fault there. But then, she insisted me to stop and braked the car. I didn't expect the car to slow down and so didn't lower down the gear and then came the nicest feeling on earth. The car stalled, and I handbraked on the hill. It was my first lesson, and was yet to master the hill. But then, made it anyway thanks to patience shown by the cars behind.

After that, tried out other roads because I wanted to know where things can go wrong, and yes, pretty much I got what I asked for. In my face.

Curiosity is what drives problem solving. Without curiosity, you might just give up.

Yashica Mg-1, 1/500s, f/2.8, Fuji Superia ISO 200.